Because of our church’s location, we encounter a relatively steady stream of people — many of them homeless — who come in and ask for money. Even in the year or so we’ve been here, we have met quite a few characters with a wide range of stories that span the spectrum of believability.
Yesterday, however, I met a man with the most elaborate story yet. For about forty-five minutes, John laid out his story of the difficult divorce he was enduring — that his wife of almost thirty years had been seeing another man for about a year and was in the process of draining him of all his resources: financial, emotional, etc. He said he worked in the area and had passed by our church many times but was compelled to stop by today because he was at the end of his rope and needed someone, anyone, to talk to.
My heart really went out to John. After all, who hasn’t felt let down by life before, harassed and helpless before a constant barrage of circumstances beyond our control? And, from the way he described his circumstances, things were going to get much worse before they might become any better. He said he was alone — no parents, no siblings, no kids. I listened, asked questions, tried to reassure him that God never abandons us, even if it appears that all hope is lost.
However, by the last third of our conversation it became readily apparent that he was asking for money. If we could just float him a loan for $150 he would pay us back by Friday, payday. This would cover his hotel costs for the week, you see, and he was totally good for it.
I don’t mean to come across cynically in sharing this story. In fact, my wife and I were ready to strain our meager financial resources in order to help him out. We want to be wise, however, in how we choose to help. I made a couple of phone calls and it became quite clear almost immediately that John’s story did not check out. He left for a “meeting” and, when he returned, I told him the church would not be able to help him out financially. He left quickly, but not before asking half-heartedly, “You don’t have any money, do you?”
At the risk of sounding naive or idealistic, I am still pretty shocked when a person can lie so brazenly — clearly, John knew which buttons to push and which heartstrings to pull. I suppose, since he was asking for more than just a couple of dollars to eat a meal, he needed an appropriately large story to match. I can understand a person’s struggle and desperation to make it. To quote Kanye West, “So I did, what I had to did, because I had a kid…”
I want to be part of the solution. I believe in contributing to organizations that have experience and expertise in dealing with the root causes of poverty and injustice. I wonder with the same ambivalence if that panhandler asking for a dollar will spend it on alcohol or drugs. Like others, I think I prefer to give a sandwich or buy a meal for someone who says that they are hungry. Had John’s story checked out, my wife and I were prepared to drive down to his hotel and cover his bill until Friday.
But, at the same time, I want to do more than cut a check from a distance and call it a day. As Shane Claiborne writes in The Irresistible Revolution:
Jesus is not seeking distant acts of charity. He seeks concrete acts of love: “you fed me.. you visited me in prison… you welcomed me into your home… you clothed me….” The church becomes a distribution center, a place where the poor come to get stuff and the rich come to dump stuff. Both go away satisfied (the rich feel good, the poor get clothed and fed), but no one leaves transformed.
Learning to sort through and filter out the hustling, lying and scamming is part of the territory. Choosing to enter into the mess of someone else’s life always means getting your hands dirty. I don’t want the audacity of some grifter to harden my heart to others who are in need. Even John, who thought he’d come and pull a fast one on some dumb pastor, is someone deeply in need.
Yeah, this is always a struggle. The head of a men’s recovery shelter (Christ centered) has said to not even give beggars (what word should I use?) even food. He says that as long as we are helping them to live on the street we are enabling them to deny their circumstances which prevents them from seeking help. I don’t know for sure about that (mental illness is not always that rational) but it does make sense.
I love the parable in Matthew 25 but I don’t think it is always about giving to the poor. Like you said, the implication is more personal, more comitted than just that. I remember one day when I passed the same beggar on my way to lunch that I passed a couple times of week. I was in the custom of handing him some money. This day all I had was my credit card so, rather embarassed, I asked if I could instead buy him lunch. He said yes and we had a very enjoyable meal in which I learnred something about him. In the end it was I who was ministerd to in this exchange.
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Christian — Thanks for stopping by and sharing your story. Too often, the complexity of dealing with poverty causes us to avoid it altogether. There’s a funny paradox in going to serve others: often, *we* end up being the ones who are truly blessed.
hey daniel. happy new year!
great post because it resonates deeply with what we face here on vine st in philly regularly. we’re highly visible alongside other neighboring homeless agencies that receive a steady stream of souls. so many guys ring our bell and we’re confronted with the same dilemma almost every week. it’s been over a year for me here in this place. some are regulars. some even come to our services. each time we’re presented with a story and unfortunately the stories never check out.
it’s tough on the heart ain’t it? it’s so tough to say no. it’s even more difficult when we get accused for not helping being that we’re a church. i want to help. i do desperately. i want to help them holistically too. i’m willing to get dirty. we often tell them, “come spend time with some of our servant leaders in our congregation so that they can hear your complete situation and then we can work out the best way to help you” and each time so far, they’ve said no very clearly with conviction in their eyes and walked away. sometimes frustrated and upset. i haven’t been able to walk away from these situations easily. i just stand there behind the glass doors to my church watching them fade away into the city.
btw love reading your stuff and all your music related posts.
more mixtapes and playlists!
LT — Good to hear from you! I was beginning to worry :) Thanks for sharing your story. It must be so frustrating to have the willingness to enter into someone’s problem and try to offer something more than just a quick handout, and yet be rejected. But, somehow, that’s the calling, right?
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Mixtapes forever! I’m working on a new one for January, which probably means it will be ready by March or so…